i told her that i didn't know

happiness is.....

tonight.

today i had the weirdest experience, i was in the car and listening to music and all of the sudden it was like a brick wall hit me (not i hit a brick wall) and i started tearing up and then i just couldn't stop laughing. i am pretty sure anyone who was on the road with me thought i was heading to the funny farm. but i didn't care. (did i mention i was alone? hahaha). it was surreal, honestly. as much as some people don't like surreal, i like it. it was just good.

i figured it out. i should have written it down, but i didn't have anything to write with or on for that matter. i'm going to try to remember before i go to bed so i can tell you. i'm ready, lets talk, it is probably my turn. then it is your turn. i'm sorry if i don't let you have turns the way i should. it isn't fair. so maybe it is your turn first, then mine. i like talking. i like listening. i like me talking to you, but i also like you talking to me.

i'm excited but i'm not going to tell you about what becuase i'm afraid if i tell i might lose it. especially if i tell over blog. i will tell in person. not blog.

i love frank sinatra. since i have loved him since i was in middle school does that make me a huge dork? probably, but i was really into that era back then. not that i'm still not into that era. my favorite thing to dress up as is nancy sinatra. okay so i'm probably making myself even more dorky.

we listened to music tonight and it was great.
i heard words.
really heard people's words.
and i was really listened to.
i want to do that for someone tomorrow.
i like this.

tomorrow is wednesday. don't like wednesdays, but i'm thinking tomorrow will be salvagable.

Listening: Take Off Your Pants and Jacket, Blink-182