as detroit goes down in smoke

Well. It has been about a month since I've written. Whoops. It is currently Friday night, and I'm watching the Tigers get just hammered in Game 5 of the World Series. 8 errors. 8. That is a ton. Top of the ninth...Anyways...

Not much to report really. I wish I had something incredibly profound to say about my ways in the world recently, but I'm fresh out of ideas. This week has actually been pretty rough. Well really the past two weeks. This whole being in a new place thing is taking a toll on me again. I don't mean to complain. I don't want to complain. I want to be happy where I'm at, I just know I'm getting adjusted. Still. Getting adjusted is a lot of work. I think in my case, it is my social life, or lack thereof that is truly causing me grief. I think I addressed that some in the last post. I'm to the point where I'm just frustrated with myself I think. I'm used to having some way to find any kind of relief from the loneliness, but now it seems that I just can't find anything to ease the "pain." (Cardinals are one out away from winning in case you were curious. It looks cold there in St. Louis. ) You know, it's not like I don't know that things will get better, that I will be okay, that this state of I'm-all-alone-in-this-big-bad-world-north-of-the-Red-River will pass. I know all of these things. I'm just seeking some peace in the meantime, and I'm pretty sure I'm trying too hard.

Detriot has a runner on base. Interesting, but Jeff Weaver of the Cardinals has had nothing but solid pitching and fielding. Impressive to watch.

I explained a little bit of my mentality to someone at work today. I've been here four months and I still feel like the new kid. For me I was more comfortable living in a foreign country, at least then I knew, and was practically expected to be completely different. Here, things are familiar enough that I relate, but different enough that I feel like a total outsider. So we'll see. I haven't made it to the six month mark. Check back with me in January, and I'll tell you what I think.

On a lighter note, I've made a few more friends at work that I'm pretty excited about. Our company volunteers at a charity golf tournament, and I volunteered to work (we could have also gone into the office that day) and I got to be around people from other departments, outside of the office. They are really nice and it is fun getting to know them. It has made me excited about my workplace again.

In other news, it is cold up here. It is pretty nice though. I like the chilly weather, though I've ended up with a sinus infection, and hopped up on steroids and antibiotics the past few days. I think my productivity at work actually went down. I don't need to be on the juice. Our office becomes a bit of an elementary school around the holidays apparently. We are strongly encouraged to dress up for Halloween, there is a pizza party and prizes and awards are given out. The editors are dressing up as Scare Bears, originally Care Bears, but there were some who wanted something more goulish I guess. So Scare Bears it is. I think it will be funny. I'll post a picture next week.

And the Cardinals win! I'm prety sure I could watch a World Series celebration every morning and that would make my day. I'm sure a number of other things would too, but it's just a really interesting thing to watch. You have the team and the fans--all those tens of thousands of people cheering for a group of about thirty men they will probably never meet. Pure joy. Of course there is always the losing team, and to them it is just bittersweet. Fireworks and confetti. Man, I love baseball, though I'm sure my commentary is probably less than adequate.

The O.C. premiers on Thursday! Yeeeeeessssss. My upstairs neighbor has a pug that runs around all the time. It is so weird.